Oh, dear. February?! February was the last time I posted here? Ugh.
I'm a person of habit, and when I fall out of one, I tend to fall big. And so it goes with writing. And posting. And actually taking time to focus in on the things most important to me. For some people, a break from blogging or journaling gives them the peace that they need to get back on the track they want to be on. For me, it almost does the opposite. I lose focus, stop noticing the little important every-day things that mean so much to me.
Last winter was a tough one, and focusing on the positive was what I should have done. But it's just not where my head was at the time. And forcing it felt fake and hard and not worth the effort or energy. But then the spring brought great joy, and I still didn't stop to appreciate it. It felt like if I held it too hard, cared too much, than it would all slip away. And summer. Oh, summer, season I love and season that sucks every bit of energy for reflection right out of me. It's too sunny and busy for me to get back to writing, if I'm not already doing it.
But now it's the end of fall. The time of year when I'm naturally drawn inward, ready to do some examining. And by now, my mother (Hi Mom!!) is the only one who checks here anymore to see if something might magically appear. But that's ok. I'm writing for me, for my children. For that push to stop and appreciate the great things that are so plentiful in my world. It's what I need.
SO, it might be time for a little catch-up. Or maybe I'll just let it all go, those months past. We'll see. But I'm dipping my toes back in the water.